internet discussions

i am frightened at the words of a close friend,! even upset, my world revolves around my friends! my wife is most important yet this is not of her! i help my friends to the extent that i would take bullets for them! no matter the time i last enjoyed their company,, i am rarely in any more need from them then their company! as i have always relied upon myself! anything more then that it is my wife to whom i turn! but on this one occasion i needed to just bounce some ideas off one i know and respected, as his friend i can see the pain in his eyes and know the fake smiles hiding it!,, i was scared i had damaged or lost our friendship as he misunderstood a written conversation!,when reading a book we imagine whats going on in our minds ! when we communicate on the internet one does not add after each line"i said in a harmless way" or " i remarked with a snicker" ,so you have to know what kind of person it is? or is this a friend? or is he being smug etc..., words like lol meaning lots of laughs but those are a bit annoying!,, on the phone or better yet in person to see looks on faces ,inflections,moods,,,i cleared things up with friends over misunderstandings! but pick up the phone and call! if your not sure! and do not have to serious discussions in writing!.

a lost love refound

re-found through tragedy, it is a sad thing and a long story!, i went out with this beautiful girl we broke up, thirty years or so later we talked again due to the death of her brother who hung around a friend of mine and both were in the same accident! i felt very strongly that it was necessary to pay my respects for she loved her younger brother very much!, i could not make the funeral as i found out after the fact!, i did not know what to expect!, yet it was kindness and apologies for the events of past years! and a renewed friendship, both leading totally separate lives, but because of the extending circumstances we talked and and treated each other with friendship!, as most of our lives have gone by we will have to get to know each other all over again just to see if we do like one another or is it the situation that has brought out the kindness in each of us!, but not in this case i can hear in her words she is honest and needed to patch up a breakup from the past that has haunted her! its to bad when you cant make peace with the past!, it is always there! i think it has been sorted out if anything good came out of this tragedy! and thats enough for me !

routines must go !!!

please dont get into a comfortable routine where you do the same thing day after day, week after week ,year after year!! if you get stuck in this routine of just comfort and you are just happy settled there!! time will pass you by! you will start to ask where the time gos ? weeks months then years !, as you have done nothing or very little different!, its the same thing over and over again!, oh!! you may be happy and have everything all sorted to the point that you dont even have to move very far for anything !?!?! but you have stagnated you made it so your almost scared to go out into the world! for shame ! adventure is just a word! is that who you are or is it just what you have become?? think about it?..... are you just living on your memories?

the life of one and all

i have done the things in life meant to do!, i lack the rearing of offspring for the desire and circumstances and life got in the way! and age came upon me as the responsibility was there!, i was reared and schooled, traveled setting out on my own to discover the world and what it had to offer! from war, barbarism, to sights of such grand reverence and people with tales and philosophies! cultures that still had know idea of the planes that flew above there heads!,to people that had truly learned from the past and were content and just smiled at the likes of me, for they knew man and they knew themselves!,they had no need to quarrel,at best a very humble debate,, i thought i would return one day but the chance of it being changed scares me to much!, i have experienced love hate and all in between!, to quick did i use my body that as a vessel it causes me pain in waking hours!,now i am with wife home and business and countless friends!, this the final act of comfort as the days of high adventure are behind me, the skills and talents so honed for survival and ability have no meaning or use for my age and lifestyle!,left is learning more,social behavior,and memories!,and events to release endorphins from the brain!, we all end up in these circumstances where we philosophize who and how we should be and excel to be this person! and hope is there that those you meet might retain part of the goodness that is you!,and we can smile knowing that we lived and had lives that no one but you can understand what life meant to you!.

i have met me long ago

i have just met myself when i was a younger man ! the man is or was just on a quest that i was on long ago! looking for the answers and there has to be more then this !?, most are the building blocks of who we are! or could be,,he is at the leveling off stage where its the philosophies learned that are used and kept in the forefront!, but the plateau is there!and one can stay on this plateau and and use different words and hear things said other ways that were the original set of philosophies! there are two paths are in front of him, one he can stay on this level and teach, speak, read, and use what he knows in the ways he can!,,yet one more path may lie ahead i have met very few that have taken this path! and it will not be discussed here today for it is a chosen path and must be discovered by oneself which is rare!, or, asked by the person from someone who is willing to and thinks he is deserving for the directions!. to my other readers and followers sorry but this was intended for an individual who knows of what i speak!, hope i did not confuse you to much! michael jameson

alone

who are we when we are alone?, i used to think that i was the same person i was when with people!, and i was just part of whatever i was doing at the time!, i have found this to be a wrong assumption on my part!, i am completely honest with myself alone! i mean i think the thoughts that out of politeness i would not say openly!, i am forever having great conversations with myself! people are most sad when they are alone in general!, yet i truly enjoy being alone! and enjoy my own company!?, some people live in fear of being alone and ruin their lives because of it!?, it might be that i like who i am and the life ive led?, or perhaps its the talents i have, so i do things that im proud of when alone!, but i think a lot when alone about me and life for me past present and future?, as far as im concerned i think to much ,but that cant be helped!, i worry as much as anyone i imagine!,,i am convinced that we are different people when alone? that cant be proved!, i would be interested in others opinions on this!? and their thoughts as i would like to form some sort of agreeable answer! thankyou michael jameson oldantiqueguy@hotmail.com

my own humanity

i do some writing and observations for the thoreau's society and a blog that i make observations on!, today the anger that welled up in me over reading someone else's "observation" made me hate myself for feeling this way!, at my age now i am a very gentle man and other then man hurting man i do not get angry! yet the site of thoreau is to teach and to give people understanding in many ways ! to make them think and appreciate the nature and the world around them!, people can make observations if they like! , i do every day, mostly i translate his work into ideas understandable in today's world!. today someone had made a simple observation and then had lists of ball caps for sale?! i know it disgusted the followers of this site philosophers students and teachers alike ! to cheapen such a mans work!, yet Thoreau talks and defines human nature! and he tells us in his own way that this is the nature of man! good or bad! i dont have to like it but it is not worthy of me to respond in anger for all to see! and i will make an apology and move past my anger and learn from it, it is the cost of being human.

a friendship renewed

i am taken aback at the reunion of an old friend!, i was but a lad to the world and had not left it to become a man! my friend was older and we spent a good deal of time pursuing teenage acts of girls, wine and song,!my friend was older buy a few years and taught me a great deal!, there was even time for admiration to a degree!,but as fortune had it, it was time for me to leave and take a path that was calling me!,parting just by fortune! years passed and once more our lives crossed and we were friends again!, we had lived a good part of lifes journey and we were both eager to tell of our lives adventures of sorrow and glory, reunited to once again play as the young men we were, yet we are adults with full lives! i am filled with the excitement of bygone days with the knowledge of the many lives i have led ! we cannot talk fast enough to one another! imparting who we are and and where we are! still with wants and needs but not as many, its like we almost never parted! the smiles and laughter are still there , and we know what friendship is!.