IF KINDNESS COULD FLOUISH

why is kindness not taught in schools? why is it a personal choice!! does it make people feel better to be unkind !! "no" i have talked to many people and their regrets are always about being unkind! and they wish they could change what they did or who they were!! they were a bully in school or they teased someone to the point of tears! and the list goes on!, but the people who were teased or bullied carry that with them for the rest of their lives!!it plays a part i molding who they will be!,,,,,,if there are only two groups in school the teased and the teasers! i dont want to go to school!, i dont want kids to go to school!, and if it is carried on into adulthood we've gone wrong! our society has gone wrong! because we have people who live in fear and people who live in hate!.. I get these emails with pretty pictures telling me to enjoy life! there nice! but here is a mind blowing idea what if we told people to be kind to their fellow man!! send pictures of a bully teasing someone!! they will remember!!! and think!?!? and atone or make an extra effort to,share ,care , help others and be kind! does it take so much? are we that selfish?, i understand it will make you feel good! is that such a bad thing?, be kind and dont sit in the middle! some people i will and some i wont!.

where we seldom go , for scott

when i was a young lad not sure of the age 11-12-13 i read a book for young adults it was about a boy who read thoreau and want to live in the woods for a few months!,well it hit me!!! life at home was not so good so i saved and bought a copy of walden and camping gear!. i took a bus to the wilds of british colubia, in land, shoveled a hole in the side of a hill, in a bit of an ell shape and put an orange pup tent against it! i remember passing by a tree and getting dirt on me, brushing it off and calling myself an idiot for doing it,i was not going to wash those jeans for a while! i tell you i knew hunger! and spent most of my time trying to feed myself!. hunger and loneliness were on my mind constantly !, thoreau read by a fat lamp that smelled rotten!, or my cook fire, was my friend and i read it a lot understanding it more and more! i knew he was on the edge of town and several years later i found out the book i read was fiction! i felt like i was an idiot for being the one that actually did live in the wild ! until i realized all tribes of indians etc,have done the same yet they had company!, i did meet some travelers! and i offered but hated parting with my food! and i hated jumping in the river to clean my self but i couldn't stand my smell!.rabbit and fish were on the menu day after day and berries! and if the plant was not bitter i ate it, i did look up some things before i went there, i was malnourished the whole time but it was the need for people that made me leave!,well scott you asked and i hope i answered your question!and i beg of you not to do it!! its fear,hunger,bears are a pain in the ass and if you hurt yourself? no hospital!!we are not meant to be alone as a people!!!

the loss of laughter

its not right that we loose the laughter we had as a child!! i would giggle and roll on the floor till my sides were sore?,tell people to stop, your killing me!, i still like a good joke and smile quite a bit!and have a little laugh the odd time!, but not the laugh that would bring tears to my eyes!,why?, a few reasons! we had no problems that we had to take care of we were fed,clothed,sheltered! the big worries in life were years away!, we were also experiencing emotions in our earliest years and every emotion was a big release of chemicals, so even when we cried it was for hours sometimes we didn't even know why! and some things we did not understand and you have kids running around playing at funerals and the like. i suppose as a teen you forced yourself not to laugh to look cool!, embarrassment as we age to both parties if you laugh far to hard as an adult?!, plus you always have something in the back of your mind to worry you! i.e. money,people,etc, well i want that feeling back!! and im going to try to laugh and like a fool if thats the case!!! feelings are important to me! as they should be for all of us!, and the more we suppress them the less human we are!.

what now

the most asked question to me is what do i do now? "is this it" i did the things i wanted to do!, whether its raise a family!, travel,grown up,filled their dreams! now what!!, do i just go along like this till i die in this monotonous plain!?!?,,, my answer is always the same "no" and i dont tell people to take up woodworking either!, if you have done the places and things its time to do the people! they are the most fascinating of all experiences the world has to offer! the bonds and the friends you can make! when i go to a different country its not the churches and castles, i saw them, and there all the same!, but the people! the local people and their lives and ways they have of looking at things can enrich you beyond belief! my deepest emotions and smiles have come from their emotions and smiles!,from the people in the next county to thousands of miles away!,even books will let you grasp why people are the way they are,become a student of people! use the internet find the people!! i have a close friendship with a man in uganda!, also remember whatever you have done it only amounts to a tiny fraction of the things to do! broaden your horizons! everyone has a story to tell! write! keep your mind as that of a child!, keep yourself happy! you have one life dont waste it by stagnating!!, SHOW THE WORLD WHAT YOU HAVE TO OFFER!!

HATE

i just wrote about hate on another site! in particular about racism and i still need to get it out of my system!!, we do not hate other people, we might hate what they do or how they have been taught or even brainwashed, but we do not hate because there different! and we have no right to force our beliefs on them !, some people believe that their way is the right way and the only way! if they are not hurting anybody let them have what makes them happy!and be who they are! unless they have been psychologically forced to do what they do!, but just because you are white, someone brown should not hate you! and if you are irish a person from ghana should not hate you!, we are all different because we were born in a certain part of the world, so if you do hate for one of those reasons its stupid!, should i hate you because your stupid? no! you just have not learned somethings yet! let us strive for humanity to each other before all else!, or, it will be short against tall!, left handed against right handed!, and one day someone will come to this planet and find out that we were a stupid people!, if you need to hate , hate yourself for hating .

time has marched on

for some reason time marches on and we cant help but changing who we are with it!,we start to slow down and our attitudes become more gentle or bitter depending on how loss has effected you ! other things too but mainly loss!, accepting who you are and the fact that life works a certain way and its pretty much the same for everyone! our appreciation of many things become dearer to us! some of us try hard to hold on to the past!, personal change is hard and routines are as we like them !, some regard the future with fear! and thats a shame but very understandable !, i wish people would regard the future as exciting to the end!. never stop exploring what you can do,we are capable of a great many things, and the imagination does not set limits! and we learn a great many things as we age!, whats important to us changes many times during our life and the one thing we must never do is to forget the past!,it made you who you are and how you look at things!, its the meaning you struck upon the earth, to other people and will be carried and passed on to all those you have come in contact with.

is it getting better

is it getting better since ww2 things have changed ,progressed ? the family unit is not as it was 100 years ago even the games in boxes that family and friends could play 20 years ago are gone! people may sit together in a room but apart!.Stimulus boxes of some shape are entertaining us!, we do not need the company of others! these boxes t.v., computers, hand held electronic games, no laughter! no sharing! oh you can watch a movie together but its entertaining you personally ! the stories of the past handed down through the generations are lost or we are losing them!! ww1 all but forgotten ! a couple more generations and ww2 will be lost and why we went to war!, people died !,lost legs and eyes!,,, we lived simple lives for each other now we live for ourselves!, to hell with this new way of life!!! people are loosing there identity and we are all becoming part of the machine!,childhood memories are of playing video games in the basement not fishing and exploring! road hockey, ball, We are the last or second last generations to not be scared of there neighbors! this is the end of people who cared about who we were and where we came from with feelings! it will just be something in the history books and old tales!.

someone special

i have just found a woman writer that enthralled me !!! a vary special woman with the willingness to share of herself with those that care to listen to her words!! she is a very thoughtful woman of great observation and reflection!!,, i know her yet we have never met!,,,,no!, i know some of who she is from her expression of the world around her!!, on occasion but rarely i come across another writer with a spirit of this magnitude that i will make the effort to contact and and hope for a response! dont get me wrong many have asked for my help and for discussion but sometimes one can touch my person on my journey with great ????? i dont have the word and im not just going to put in anything!, even shapes of the past have importance to her soul!! and i thank her for being her!.

jackie

i had an evening with my wife and it should have been set to music! there just should have been a song playing in the background! like nothing ever slipped away from our relationship! it was a grand time from beginning to end, it was just nice, she came home we hugged we went for a walk and bought potato chips and had some beside the river! we walked home talking a bit and hung a vine in the garden!, we made dinner watched television and at some point each of us went to bed!,,it was pleasant simple and we did not complain much ! a simple evening husband and wife talking holding hands! it was a joyous occasion every couple on earth experiences countless times! i just wish music , a theme song or something was playing for us in the background! .

alive

its still and forever going to be the most profound feeling one will ever have! to be aware! use the senses! think,observe,reflect absorbing the surroundings, to communicate to express!!!!! to read to write ! to be entertained ! feelings love hate being with a friend a soul mate !!!! to win to lose to experience loss , a thrill, art, music amused parents to fly travel and to be intoxicated !!!!!!! to be scared to laugh to feel wanted and needed, to know to have a home to have a pet ,, chocolate have a favorite to swim, woman time the sun warmth cozy creative touch tender tickle shaking hands, a child is born, light sunsets !, sharing ! friends helping! culture silly ,,,, a shower !! color smell coffee smiles pain fear joy bliss sleep wake written for my friend bill.

just one disability

having a disability one or more ! no one knows what it does to you but you! some have a similar one and can share some feelings! , but you are your own person and no one but you can understand what it does to you or how it effects you! its your life thats been broken and there your losses that you dont get to enjoy, and damn if the the loss of a spouse or a child is not a disability i dont know what is!, personally i would give both legs and an arm for what i have lost and mine is in the head! among other things i lost my identity or most of it and had to rebuild it again, and i liked who i was! and building an identity when you have lost who you were is not easy!, you have to listen a lot of others perspectives of you and your mind relates back in a similar response, but you always have a nagging morsel of your former self and it hurts not being able to grasp any more of it!!. i also could not write this unless i was writing it! that wont make sense to most! but i would have forgotten my train of thought and if interrupted would have no idea what i was writing about unless reading it!. now imagine that when talking?, if someone goes off topic for a second thats where my thoughts go and i cant remember what we were talking about!,not going mad is something i have to control! when i get feeble minded at an elderly age if i reach it i will be institutionalized ! great thing to always have on your mind?, so they were right genius borders on insanity!!!!.

compassion

compassion is a hard subject to write about!! you either have it or you dont!, and you work towards having it! or you dont !,it can be the most wonderful quality one can have! just to have it within ones family is the greatest gift you can give them!you cannot give compassion to yourself!you have it in your heart to give to others! its an understanding of ones feelings and acting in a manner that only makes them feel good!,i think it is one of the most beautiful quality's that one can have!, even at the cost of your own pain to give of yourself for ones comfort!, we go through alot of trials in life and are hurt many times so to a degree we can understand pain in another and this is why we are compassionate!, i have found the less pain one has gone through the less compassion they show or they can only show it it some areas! the ones that have gone through a lot of pain in a lot of areas show the most compassion!, its sad really!,but in most cases reality!,some just have anger for what they have been through or show frustration as in'' i went through it why cant they''!, but it is always recognized for what it is!, i have seen fake and real compassion and they are always seen for what they are!,but to feel true compassion from someone!, a bond is formed that will last forever and cherished!.

for now for the few

we leave it in the care of others if possible and live our lives according to the rules!, we are the few! with wonder and questions , ideas, and kindness we are gentle yet passionate, and we are at a roadblock!,we still search even though we have found the answers! we seem to love music and are more self educated ,we have hope? and the ideas we have left are extraordinary!, we have gone back to the beginning looking, i think for, peace of a kind!? along the way we have attained something extra that has no name! a sense of freedom yet we are not content! we know what it is yet we cannot explain what it is,to anyone or ourselves! its a longing of a sort and we are not even sure if we want it filled!. this will sound stupid to some!, but not to us!, there seem to be limitations and we are not happy with them!, more on this later for us the few.......

i had a need

we all have needs! but im here and its me writing!,looking for sympathy no! trying to make sense of it all no! ive done that and i have found the answers! it is good to know, but the search was better!, now my dreams are gone and my needs are simple!, its not that ive lost my dreams! ive fulfilled them!, now what!? is that it i just exist now with the my quests and questions answered and done? im still fascinated and annoyed with people and whats being done to and by them!, i still learn and i still need to express myself but the big things are done and gone!, so im left with myself, conversing with others , my wife, and my store! im not sure if thats enough anymore! and i will get back to my readers i just need some time and incentive. thankyou

fragile brains

i have recently discovered JUST how fragile our brains are!,to build a computer to do all the functions the brain does it would fill new york island!,i discussed politics every day with a man and one day he had a stroke! now he just smiles and can say 12 words!,i had about 30 seizures one day and i had to become a person all over enough memory burned out that the things that made me me were lost! what i new from years ago were still there but my identity was mangled and lost! i was fortunate i still had the tools to rebuild me and i will always mention a caring wife!,but that organ we carry around on top of this body is more fragile then you think!! and the stories abound from autism to m.s.!, i think we should all keep the most sacred of all things to us "who we are" and be well aware of how quickly we can loose it! and how much that can hurt and change who you are into what you are!, i also think i wrote this article for me!.

my passions

i think my passions may get in the way sometimes of even my better judgment! and its just in the odds that im going to upset some of my readers from time to time just as i have arguments over points of view with my best friends!, i must admit i am a very passionate person!, and yes i have been guilty of writing before i think!, we all have opinions about everything and each persons are different from another! sometimes we share similar views and sometimes we change our views!, if all our views were the same there would be no need to write because everyone would be thinking the same thing!what a world!?, its our diversity that makes us special! when i write on another site about Henry Thoreau i translate what he said into an easier way for me to understand! we're both saying the same thing just in words 150 years apart!,its still there to reflect and feel it how it makes sense to you!, the reason i even read in the first place is too see others points of view! and sometimes to strengthen my own! and sometimes lust to know im not alone in this world and others share with me!. michael jameson oldantiqueguy@hotmail.com

tragedy addicts

why are so many of us tragedy addicts?,the front line of every newspaper in the world is about one tragedy or another every television show at the top of the ratings is about some tragic event!, talk shows,movies etc..,even a car accident on one side of the road the traffic on the other side is backed up for miles with people looking to see the event! who are we that death and destruction is our greatest form of entertainment? what kind of people are you that need that? i will tell you! someone told me long ago what this fascination is! our own mortality and its been in bred into us since man was killing wild animals for food! even in the roman empire they would kill thousands at once to entertain an audience and make the emperor popular! and in our day its the movie star! killing movies sell the most! you cant help it its in you!unless you train yourself not to let it excite you! but you can let that go to far too !!!!

my friend

one of the best friends ive ever had! we have never done a lot of things together except talk! and a drink or two, i must admit this man has been very generous to me and my wife! but people who know me understand that would have no bearing on our relationship, i have felt his pain and have wept for him when his wife who made up a lot of who he was pass away!, he has taught me as a father, he is 69 im 44 !, not that it really enters into it, but i have spoken to him for the kind of knowledge i would like a fatherly answer from, my real father is far away and its not the same due to many things ! we are very intelligent and well versed in many areas!,and passionate on some subjects, we can be ridiculous or sublime i cherish all the time we spend together! he adds flavor to the day and we are a sight to see together!money has never changed hands between us! and we would share our last cent!,i actually find it hard to describe our friendship! it is real and our talk is mostly unreal,many people have written of friendship,and each is different,i think when one wants to write about it the bond is a worthy one and goes to many levels!,we talk like two friends drinking in a pub yet we are sober! i think he has become part of me now! and will say no more!for i could go on for miles!.

my god with proof

you have asked again what is god to me?! okay! it is a force !,yes like in star wars! everything has energy, a stone a tree a dog and us! energy is all around us ! it is a physical law that energy never dies it transforms but never ends! being alive we are made or work with bio-electric energy! and we know when we die that energy leaves our body as it does with all living things! it goes out, with all that came before us and it is alright,each energy has its own signature of whence it came! it is!. you will be transformed into the essence of what you are! yes you will know others you meet as energy!... and remember everything we have know and can see is made up of energy,even a rock we know uses energy to move atoms it is made of,if you heat a rock or add energy the atoms move faster! fooling with these atoms is not a good idea look at hiroshima that energy is still moving,if you throw a rock in space it goes on forever! if you prey i think you are preying to all that came before you!,and yes the force is stronger in some then others! you can feel it, well some can! so if i were to give "god" a face its a collective of our ancestors,combined a lot of energy! that is my idea of it! sorry if i have offended people who think he is a bearded man in a big chair.