for myself !

i have to write this to try and get it out of my system, it still hurts! i had a friend and we were like brothers! almost every day for 2 years or more we hung out!,we would play and laugh like schoolboys! he collected toys thats how i met him! and thats the kind of shop i have! he even had a key to my house and business! we helped each other with everything!,always thrilled to see each other! it was perfect! then one day i got a very large shipment of toys in! there were loads of them! and he asked if he could buy a few of them! sure i said! the next day my high end toy guy came over and bought several things! me trying to keep my pals aside!but one got confused! my pal was there and said nothing just see you later!,next day he showed up at my door with the keys of mine and everything i had at his place the friendship was over!?, i did not understand and i was hurt and am still hurt! i even still consider him my friend!,a mutual acquaintance said to me mike did it not ever dawn on you that you were his only friend? and it hadn't!,,i make a point now with new friends that you cant be the kind of person that will throw away a friendship over something like one misunderstanding or to talk and see if we can fix the problem first!!,,, i dont know if this helped me? i would be his friend again in a second!, maybe one day we will talk over a beer!

compassion

time and time again i talk of passion!, to do this, or feel this,for one self it is high time i write of "compassion" for others or another! and im not talking about, "you get what you give" true as it is!,or giving a few dollars to help the orphans?,i know people who go to church and while they are there the level of compassion they show is grand! the way they talk and help and think it is a high they get and the chemicals flow through their bodies! and it makes them feel a true sense of elated character and are surrounded by others, it makes some cry and feint and feel exalted!, but after church is over how they change!! the chemicals leave their bodies and its like an addict they become moody and irritable, that is a proven fact!, they are reverting back to who they really are! soon they are comfortable in their own skin again as they realize, this!is who they are! and sundays are their drug!!!,, the thing is we can have this every day by feeling compassion by how you treat others!? strangers,elderly,even friends who need!, opening doors,kind words,carrying something,etc,etc,the list is end less!! the same chemicals are released in small doses and you might even notice a small smile on your face!,,and you have shown compassion and helped your fellow man.

who are they?

thanks scott for letting me share my answer to you with others!. i will never say another man is out and out wrong! i may disagree but i will go no further,especially when it comes to thoreau!, i have not walked that mile in his shoes!,nor have i lived his life the way he lived his!,,i have not grown up the same or in the same time frame,schooling,parents,brain activity,experiences,memory,culture,personality differences,the list is endless!,, and one man should never profess to know the mind of another!,, i have wonderful debates with friends and strangers for that matter and i enjoy nothing more then hearing another mans perspective on things,which can alter my own or add to it, and change it!!!,to learn from another who is willing to share with you, is one of the greatest gifts one can give to another!. michael jameson oldantiqueguy@hotmail.com

the answer

i found it !!!!! why people ignore me with a pleasant good morning or why they wont comment on thoreau's site!!! i wrote the answer in my other site!!! its FEAR!!!!! people are terrified !, to look like their stupid or their friends might see it and tease them! or shun them!, the media has scared them so much, crime and tragedy on the front pages, movies! they dont think so but they live in fear!, family and a few close friends their house with locks scared of the world! what a horrible way to live!!! and you cant change it!. read my story on thoreau and beyond on webs site builder the populace are terrified to live!!!! and people died so we could speak freely!! shame on you ! you have ideas , stories , feelings! ITS YOUR WORLD TO SHARE TOO

once again people, help me

the never ending behavior of people astonishes me!! and again a woman walking down the main street, i say good morning with a smile and this woman walks by with nothing!, i say "how civilized" loud enough for her to here! then i greet a man good morning and he replies morning! the woman is looking at me pointing to herself, i nod, oh! the stare i got!?????? i need someone to write me and tell me why when someone mostly woman are greeted with good day in passing im ignored??? im a good looking guy still! its women from 30-50, older people are happy to be greeted! younger may do it out of respect?,men always seem to do it! so what is it ???? and if i say how civilized after! they react then?! so fear cant be it!? so will a kind reader help me if they can? please im baffled? michael jameson oldantiqueguy@hotmail.com

passion lost

i react upon my passions !! we all do!, passions lost are one of the things that can destroy the spirit!! and if to many passions are lost and there are no new ones to take there place!, a horrible thing happens!,,depression!, followed by loss of ambition and drive!, then you do things because they need to be done ! you eat just to take in nourishment! and even deciding what to eat is a chore!,,, instead of creating you let the box entertain you! then sleeping becomes trouble!!! you either sleep just not to be awake or you cant sleep and you must be drugged to sleep!!,, and the depressed person is not an idiot! he knows and sees it going on and he even understands !? its the amount of care! he just doesn't care ! and if he does care it makes it worse!,that's when he needs to get help!! and mostly from themselves!! they need a passion back or find a new one!!! the more passions one has the happier one is! passion lets you create show talent makes yourself feel good!! lets others in! gives you strength! a future!, life! and any life is worth living! its what you get! and when it comes right down to it! its all you get! everything else you have to work for or hard at! even if you start with a journal! and for heavens sake dont put down ate watched t.v. and went to bed!.

not again and no more of them

freedom of the press! thats what your doing when writing here! its writing that is open to all to read without repression ! yet i have been told to change it and it has been used against me!!! to hurt my feelings,to make me look stupid,and that it might hurt another?,,, it so true i tell you that the ones closest to you can hurt you the most!,your caring level is higher towards them!. i will not share any more of my blog sites with with certain individuals!, for i am still a man and have every emotion,feeling,weakness,strength,as every other man !! and thomas i now understand why you would not write!?! you told me you did not want family and friends seeing and playing with your feelings and using them in jest! i will not stop writing yet methinks i will be select when allowing the ones dearest to me where i write!! How sad indeed!!! when my feelings and expressions are to be edited " what good is it when i cant even sing to you" , when your work becomes that of another! even subconsciously ! i hear it come out and my own head shakes !,, i am told to weigh the responses? so many glorious thank yous, new friends, students, people of conscious, philosophers,teachers, my heart and my thanks is with them!.