just one disability

having a disability one or more ! no one knows what it does to you but you! some have a similar one and can share some feelings! , but you are your own person and no one but you can understand what it does to you or how it effects you! its your life thats been broken and there your losses that you dont get to enjoy, and damn if the the loss of a spouse or a child is not a disability i dont know what is!, personally i would give both legs and an arm for what i have lost and mine is in the head! among other things i lost my identity or most of it and had to rebuild it again, and i liked who i was! and building an identity when you have lost who you were is not easy!, you have to listen a lot of others perspectives of you and your mind relates back in a similar response, but you always have a nagging morsel of your former self and it hurts not being able to grasp any more of it!!. i also could not write this unless i was writing it! that wont make sense to most! but i would have forgotten my train of thought and if interrupted would have no idea what i was writing about unless reading it!. now imagine that when talking?, if someone goes off topic for a second thats where my thoughts go and i cant remember what we were talking about!,not going mad is something i have to control! when i get feeble minded at an elderly age if i reach it i will be institutionalized ! great thing to always have on your mind?, so they were right genius borders on insanity!!!!.